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OH THE DRAMA...
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jeudi, octobre 07, 2004
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haha...wow! i've figured it out! i know (part of) why i've been crying sooo much recently. i really am just totally and completely sleep deprived. my body is crying as it's only source to "recover" since i don't get enough shut eye at night. don't get me wrong, i figured this was one of the reasons, but today...getting in bed i didn't think i was going to actually sleep. i thought i was going to lie there miserable. amazingly enough, after crying myself to sleep, though, i got a good hour and a half...TRUE sleep. something i don't get too much of around here anymore. no, that's not true. i sleep in 2-hr intervals really well...but that's not very healthy. that means i go to bed at midnight, wake up at 2, 4, 6 and depending on when i have to get up 7 or 8. for the most part those 2 hrs are interrupted, though, so that's a good thing...
crying feels good...that's why i do it. everyone's heard the story of a mother's tears; mine are just "female tears".
i hate PMSing...it's such a crap feeling. seems like everyone turns against you for the week...guys just don't understand.
sorry to all of you who have witnessed my (1) bitchiness, (2) crying, (3) doubtfulness, (4) depression, (5) hatred, (6) cold-shoulder, etc. it's almost gone...but now that i've slept over it, i think it's going to be better. i had a conversation with someone today and he/she really put things into perspective for me. it was like a slap in the face, which is something that i've probably been needing for a long time. no more obsessive, clingy, overbearing, over-reacting miree...she's gone. (or at least she'll stop telling people how she really feels.) all that's left is going to be a dry, decisive...me!
6:37 PM
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