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OH THE DRAMA...
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jeudi, octobre 21, 2004
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this is not a post that guys should read unless:
(a) you are really that curious
(b) you have absolutely NOTHING better to do
(c) you really do care what's going on in my life...and i mean ALL of it...
as for the girls... you may not want to read this either (as a forewarning).
needless to say, yesterday was NOT the best day of my life. the day started out pretty not so wonderful with this gross, sticky, drizzly weather and didn't seem to get any better as the day progressed. two guys spent monday night on our futon and i didn't realize that they were GUYS and not my SUITEMATES until i walked out of the shower in just a TOWEL! (way to start off the day...) ok, so classes were alright, i suppose. i didn't really do much in gym and just took notes in ess...and we watched a movie in poli sci. so i went to lunch with karen and erin and that was nice but then i had to go to the health center. ok, my appointment was for 2:30 yesterday and i was there from 2:15 until almost 4:30. YAY! i hate going to the doctor. well, the pap smear wasn't as bad as i thought it would be; the ct wasn't too horrible; the nurse practitioner was really nice and was VERY informative with all of my questions...but then there was another problem. yeah. so i ASSUMED (i know, never assume) that after a week of meds i would be finished with all the UTI and yeast infection stuff. turns out my vaginal (GUYS...I TOLD YOU NOT TO READ THIS ONE!) pH is way too high. it's supposed to be around 3.8 or 4.2...mine's over 5.5...which means it's off the scale. YAY FOR ME!!! i'm way to basic...i don't have enough acid down there to kill the bacteria...which means NOW i have bacterial vaginosis. what a wonderful thing. NOT SO MUCH! anyway, so after the wonderful dr appointment, karen and britt and i went to austin to go to victoria's secret so we could buy some cute lingerie to help get rid of my "bad day blues". TOO BAD I'M TOO BIG FOR THAT DARN STORE! yay...you all make fun of how big i am. ...if only you knew....if only i knew. :( i hate my life. yeah. so karen and i are going BACK to austin today to try a different store and see if they will at LEAST measure me right. right. so i'm all excited. i'm going to go get measured and i'm going to find a bra that ACTUALLY fits me and everything...and i get there, get measured and the girl tells me i'm a 36-C. now...i'm not trying to call her STUPID or anything, but just looking at me, you can tell i'm not a 36-C. 36, yes. C, NO! i haven't been a C-cup since freshman or sophomore year. so that was fun. karen and i have decided that i'm either a 36-DDD or i'm doomed to never find the right bra! (well, that's my take on it, not so much karen's.) anyway, after that we went to cheesecake factory and i got a salad and the chocolate silk and satin cheesecake. i really didn't need the cheesecake and i think it's part of what's been making me nauseated today. *yuck feeling* anyway, i got back and went to the LBJ window to help...uh...sit there and keep nay, jessica and brian company. brian brought me to pick up my prescription for this dang stupid bacterial vaginosis that i've got. ok...I HATE TAKING PILLS!!! i'm starting to think that i would have rathered a cream or something. this pill is a horse pill. it takes gross. i don't like pills. i have a really hard time swallowing big pills and this one's no fun. ok...so the medicine may make me nauseated and may make me vomit. IT'S NOT SO MUCH THE MEDICINE AS THE STUPID PILL!!!! I CAN'T GET IT TO GO DOWN MY GOSH-DARN THROAT! and more than that...it tastes sooo not ok with me. the medicine is also supposed to make me lose my appetite. well...see...that's fine, i suppose, because i haven't really had it in 4 weeks; HOWEVER, i'm sooo hungry. i really do think i'm starving myself without meaning to. i'm really really hungry right now but nothing sounds good and i know as soon as i try to put something in my mouth, i'm going to regret it because it's not going to taste good and i'm not going to be hungry for it anymore. example: karen and i get blimpies almost everyday for lunch. recently i haven't been able to get halfway through it before i'm "full" and can't eat anymore. aaaaaaand the doctor (last week not yesterday) said that my urinalysis showed that i have too many ketones in my urine because i'm not eating enough and i'm not eating healthy enough. GOOD TO KNOW! she told me that i need to increase my food intake by quite a bit...but i can't. it sucks. i wanna go home and go to MY doctor instead of the quack-shack here where everytime i go in, i see someone new. dr. urano will fix me up. i just don't want to have to go in again...
chris REALLY needs to be here right now. i'm glad he's already planning on coming in this weekend because...we need to REALLY talk about things. *sigh* i just...don't know what to do about any of this anymore. i want to give up and just say "screw it all" but i know that's not going to make anything any better...infact, it will only make things worse. i just...i hate going in and continuing to find out there's something wrong with me.
11:04 AM
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