• mom/dad call saying someone close to me died but i'm not allowed to miss school for the funeral
• parents tell me they're dropping me financially
• connie's taken away from me
• i have to pay for school, books, etc
• dad tells me i'm a disappointment to him
• chris breaks up with me
• erin tells me i'm the worst roommate in the world
• fanatics drop me because i'm not "spirited" enough
• i fail all my tests
• my bed falls in the middle of the night breaking my monitor, printer, speakers, "love" mug from mina, and pictures of me and chris along with the one of me and daddy
• i fall out of bed, break my leg and arm, crack open my head but don't die
• i get mono
• i get stuck in the STUPID elevator (i hate elevators)
• i fall in a drain
• college inn burns down and we get stuck, without any of our stuff, in elliot hall room 124
• i go to jail
• i get kicked out of school and mom and dad won't let me move back home

that's about all i can think of right now... pretty crappy day, huh? makes mine not sound so bad. maybe not bad, but i'm going to write about it anyway, so if you don't want to listen to a whine-fest, STOP NOW!!! (that was your warning)

• fell out of bed this morning. i missed my chair, tried to catch my foot on my desk but missed that too, managed to kick almost everything off of the corner of my desk, stepped onto/into the trashcan, knocked over a bag and ended up with cuts on my arm
• i skipped my first class of the semester this morning. i didn't go to exercise physiology this morning because i fell out of bed...and i didn't feel very ok
• i went into my prevention of diseases test totally blind because i didn't study at all...and coughed and sniffled the whole way through it
• came back to the room and was going to sleep but didn't...
• talked to chris on my way down to jowers and the convo ended NOT too pleasantly...
• went to beg. weight training and today we did power cleans...and guess who couldn't do them. guess who was the ONLY one in the class that couldn't do them. guess who had the professor helping her. guess who had everyone in the class laughing at her. YEP!!! YOU GUESSED IT!!!! ME! talk about embarrassing...
• didn't feel like eating lunch today but ate half a personal pizza and a chocolate chip cookie anyway
• cried in the lbj when erin asked what was wrong...not cool
• came back and got on my computer...only to have chris get mad at me again...then he went to work and...bad stuff...
• put up an away message that i was in bed crying which didn't exactly receive high marks from the judges...who yelled at me for crying all the time
• cried myself to sleep...for 2 hrs...

that's probably all the not so pleasant stuff that's happened today. but, at least i've figured somethings out, some things have been put into perspective for me...mainly because the person that put them into perspective doesn't talk to me like he/she did today.

*sigh* it's all going to be ok. i'm going to change for you. i'm going to be a different person because you want me to. i'm going to be the person you want me to be. i'm going to make you happy. i love you.